Hello all who are reading this,
Today is my first day of work after a week of school and i am losing patience with my company. I am trying to be nice when the management doesnt think me important enough to discuss things with me even when i was a full timer. Its a feeling i had on and off for the past one and half years during full timer period and it is about to come to a head. The problems as follows:

I converted to a part timer and only go back on Saturdays as a tryout first. Today, on my first Saturday back, i heard that they are making plans(unconfirmed but still gets my blood boiling) to transfer in a Retail Assistant as they are shorthanded on weekdays. True.We are really shorthanded. But no one ever tells me anything there. The retail assistant in question is a former Multimedia staff who has gone over to cashiering. What i am fuming at is no one bothered to tell me about this arrangement, even if its unconfirmed. Never mind. I should wait and see. I will ask where i stand once i hear this RA is in. I am on fairly ok terms with her. Just that i feel unimportant and ignored. Most importantly unappreciated.

I feel sorry for the 33 people who died in the Virgina Tech Uni's senseless gun rampage by this South Korean guy. The guy should have been forced to undergo some sort of long term counselling that would have made him feel better bout himself and others. Some times i wonder what a world it has become that we are discriminated against based on skin colour, background, stereotyping. To quote Giodarno( risk being sued by them)...Sometimes i wonder this was a World Without Strangers.

Hope i get through the TWO YEARS without any major problems. Dear i think you know what i mean. Dunno, ask me lo!! LOL!

Problems, Problems, Problems....when will it really end? Dear Dear....

3rd day of school

Hi everyone,
Today is the 3rd day of school. I am still getting used to the kooks and crannies of BISHAN ITE. I have to admit, i am a bit slow in picking up and understanding the lessons so far, however simple they may be at this stage. Its a combo of rustiness(I didnt study for six years between this one and my last period of study) and my natural learning style (a bit slower and relaxed, sometimes too relaxed). I think i need at least a month of trying every day to settle in. I miss my Dear.

I made a couple of new friends, still not sure what to say to them so i appear quiet.
The rest of the class are shy around me as i am around them. Haha.I still have difficulty talking to some patterns of people i realise.

No matter what happens, i wont give up this time. Its swim or sink for me from now on until the end of this course. I wont give in to external influences not to study. (eg friends. Its incredible how peer pressure can be nowadays.)

I am an adult now and i will take the power and rock steadiness of an adult and the energy and vibrancy of an eighteen year old and combine them into me. I will DARE TO BE DIFFERENT from now on. Haha.

Photos would be in soon.

First day of School...after 6 years.

Hi everyone, today is my first day of school after 6 years out of the mainstream education system. I have to admit, every thing feels so weird and alien to me. I felt like running back to my deer deer for comfort.

I am already starting to miss the days when i would see a cheerful( she tries her best to be) Dear Dear often. When i was a full timer at Popular, i can go for lunch and/or dinner with my Dear almost every day, i can talk to her bout anything, i can have someone comfort me when i am down. I dont feel uncomfortable around her. Now i can only see her once or twice a week. :(

Re-integration into School: Its hard when you are the oldest in your class( and no 1 on a class register that goes by the IC number). The next oldest guy is 5 years younger. So is the rest of the class. Haiz and i am not exactly the most expressive or talkative person by today's standards. AND being in a progression class, most of my class are FROM ITE Bishan. Which means they have their own cliques and friends already. That is a new situation for me. I am not fretting too much over it though. I will let nature run its course. Being older, i sure know how to do that. I just felt a discomfort the type you feel when you are trying to know someone or when you are new. Didnt feel that in a year already. Strange feeling.

My class in ITE Bishan has only 5 guys to a class of 34 or 35. Outnumbered by girls 6 to 1 if you counted. Ha ha. I am still getting to know the people there. Guys are a rare commodity there. I am completely focused on getting to Poly though. I will work very hard for it. I guarantee that. At the grand age of 23 i cannot be fooling around with my studies anymore. Because if i miss this chance and fail, there is NEVER going to be a THIRD chance. EVER.

Today is the day when our store staff will count their stock in preparation for their stocktake tmr. I wonder how my ger is doing. When i went back to fetch my keys this afternoon(which i left at her place), she was counting. Now at 10.15 pm, she is still counting. My poor deer.

I have to go and get prepared for the second day in school tomorrow. Hope some kind of progress is made tomorrow.